In the mornings I try to start us off with some scripture study and discussion. Today we discussed "agency". I'm trying to believe it wasn't an epic fail. We watched the following video and then wrote down our own individual goals that we posted in our rooms of things we want to improve upon this week. (How to better use our agency)
The Will of God
Homeschooling is a difficult sacrifice. The love I have for my children and the good days of learning are what keep me going.
However….
December is always a difficult month for me and my girls. Not only is Christmas time hard without Daddy but his birthday is also in December.
I have found that my and my girls emotions get more and more sensitive and therefore easily hurt until they peak at Christmas or sometimes the new Year.
I found and re-read my late husband's journal; this time to my girls. Honestly, nothing bad was said about anyone. His love for us was strong and ever apparent in his life and his words speak from the grave to us now. How he appreciated all the little things in life and lived each moment to the fullest is a testament of his great character.
This is what I hope for my children.
We discussed how they have so many "tools" in their "toolbox". They have a piece of their Daddy coursing through their veins, they have his great example, they have me (a far from perfect example but I am a true and constant in their life), they have a new father figure who cares for their over-all welfare, new siblings and new grandparents who sacrifice for them.
I asked them what kind of a mother and wife they would like to be when they grew up and they said like me. That was touching. I expressed to them how I expect them to be better than me. I hope that their children would be better than them and so on. Isn't that what we want for our future? Children to grow up stronger and more righteous than the previous generation?
That is what lead us to make our goals. (NO, it wasn't a pretty situation. No one liked thinking about changing themselves, only changing the others around them.) This never works, because of agency. We all have our freedom to choose. I can choose what manner of woman I want to be, I cannot make those same choices for my children, but I certainly hope I am putting in my share and more of the "tools" they will need in their "toolbox" to successfully make correct choices that will not only affect those immediately around them, but into the future.
Homeschooling is a difficult sacrifice. The love I have for my children and the good days of learning are what keep me going.
However….
December is always a difficult month for me and my girls. Not only is Christmas time hard without Daddy but his birthday is also in December.
I have found that my and my girls emotions get more and more sensitive and therefore easily hurt until they peak at Christmas or sometimes the new Year.
I found and re-read my late husband's journal; this time to my girls. Honestly, nothing bad was said about anyone. His love for us was strong and ever apparent in his life and his words speak from the grave to us now. How he appreciated all the little things in life and lived each moment to the fullest is a testament of his great character.
This is what I hope for my children.
We discussed how they have so many "tools" in their "toolbox". They have a piece of their Daddy coursing through their veins, they have his great example, they have me (a far from perfect example but I am a true and constant in their life), they have a new father figure who cares for their over-all welfare, new siblings and new grandparents who sacrifice for them.
I asked them what kind of a mother and wife they would like to be when they grew up and they said like me. That was touching. I expressed to them how I expect them to be better than me. I hope that their children would be better than them and so on. Isn't that what we want for our future? Children to grow up stronger and more righteous than the previous generation?
That is what lead us to make our goals. (NO, it wasn't a pretty situation. No one liked thinking about changing themselves, only changing the others around them.) This never works, because of agency. We all have our freedom to choose. I can choose what manner of woman I want to be, I cannot make those same choices for my children, but I certainly hope I am putting in my share and more of the "tools" they will need in their "toolbox" to successfully make correct choices that will not only affect those immediately around them, but into the future.
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